Dear gloggers I need your help!!! I usually write strories about other people but today I am going to talk about myself I would love your opinion. About 4 weeks ago I tried to commit suicide. I took an entire bottle of pills, and I jumped out of my window that is the sencond story of my apartment. I am currently seeing a therapist but I need my friends more than ever. Honestly I have one homegirl who I can to talk to here and even she is sometimes to preocupied with her own life to help me and it seems like wen I need someone the most I have no one. Some of you may know I have a son he will be turning 2 in November and I just want to be there for him, but sometimes my own emotional state is bigger than anything else. I was diagnosed with a dissorder called borderline personality dissorder. Its been mistaken with skitsofrina and other dissorders but my piont is I dont know why I am so sad. I am tring to understand why. I want an answer so I can hopefully heal. The pain has become overbearing. Be honest, if wen I talk about this u feel Im seeking attention its fine im not going to lie I love attention and I want it all the time I just want to quit hurting myself because I have a son who needs me. A week after my suicdal atempt my son told me he loved me for the first time, I felt so guilty I have been so selfish. Help me send me any motivation thatnk u all for your time responses and your caring friendships I apreciate it so!!! Lots of Love LA PALOMA AKA ANA
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Rose24, 3 months ago
I know u dont know me but once my friend told me bout this i had 2 c it.
Ill i have 2 say is stay strong girl i waz in the same problem last year but all my stood by me nd helped me through
Jus hold strong por tu nino becuase God sent u this baby 4 u to luv and 4 it 2 do da same 4 u .
jus think of that baby adn just trust in your self mija nd everything will b cool.
And if eva again u need advice jus send me a message and ill b thier
RubyLips, 3 months ago
STAY STRONG, PALOMITA!!!! You have to! For your Son!!! Sending you warm Hellos and Big Bear Hugs your way.
gothgirl(), 3 months ago
hey sweet i dont look at this as an attention seeking thing..u just sound like your desperate and fed up and just want to be normal and live normally and have normal thoughts..u know we r here for u ok:) u dont even have to ask,ppl on here care and we will help u thru this..remember those words u wrote..ur son just told u he loved u..hang tight..and sweetie after u tried to commit suicide..who was there? did u go to hosp?? are they giving u treatment??
Im only a message away..please writexxxxxxxx
Browneyes310, 3 months ago
Bi polar is much more common than you may think! I have it as well, motvation would be LIFE & YOUR SON!! That should be all the motivation that you need. Life isn't always fair & it is easy to get caught up in everyday bullshit. I get sepressed just as much as the next person, but I have three little boys whom I absolutely adore & a husband that is my best friend & ONE BEST FRIEND that has gotten me through anything & everything. I would never want to take my life, because I would not be the one suffering, all the ones I love would be left behind feeling like maybe it was their fault. Seeing a theropist was a great idea & key, besides that put yourself in good surroundings & around people who love you & motivate you, not around ones who bring you down. And if you want to ever talk- you know how to get a hold of me :o) I love you girl, you are stronger than you may think!! Know that!!
KatieKatMacias, 3 months ago
Espero que seas fuerte girl.. I feel your pain..
thatgirl003, 3 months ago
omy girl i def feel you i have a son to and he is two already and i i also have dissorder bi polar and its not easy and wont get any easyer but your son will get you threw trust me i know and if you ever need me im onley a tpe away xoxo